We’ve all seen this movie. The hero, the villain, and an unimportant third guy are all sitting around the poker table. The dealer deals the cards. Hero and the villain stare at each other. Villain looks at his cards and bets an insanely high amount of money. Unimportant third guy says, ‘I fold’ and throws his cards away in disgust. Hero and villain stare at each other some more. The heroine draws in a shaky breath. Hero clenches his jaw, pushes all his chips to the center and says, ‘I’m all in!’ The audience holds its collective breath. The hero is fully committed now. Will his gamble pay off? Whatever the outcome, you must admit it’s pretty dramatic stuff!
So, what does going all in for Jesus mean and more importantly what does it mean for me, a stay-at-home mom-of-4? My days are filled with poopy diapers, dirty dishes, meal planning for little human beings who have tastes on opposite ends of the spectrum, sleepless nights, and loads and loads of laundry. How do I go all in for Jesus amid all that? Does it mean I read the Bible and pray 24/7 and abandon all my duties? I mean, a meal plan that has Skittles for dinner would be really stress free and would make everyone happy! I’ll even make sure I get the variety pack for extra nutrition! And I’ve always wondered that if kids are germ magnets, is there really any point in cleaning up? Not doing any of that stuff sounds like a lovely vacation to me but somehow, I don’t think that’s quite what going all in for Jesus means!
Fortunately for us Jesus showed the way. He went all in before He required it of us. Philippians 2:6-8 says ‘Though he was God, he did not think of equality with God as something to cling to. Instead, he gave up his divine privileges; he took the humble position of a slave and was born as a human being. When he appeared in human form, he humbled himself in obedience to God and died a criminal’s death on a cross.’ Nothing half-way or non-committal about that! Jesus didn’t hold back when he gave himself for us. He had complete trust in His father’s plan for redeeming mankind and dived headfirst in.
I think for me going all in means trusting God. Not in a wishy-washy, half-believing kind of way, but really truly trusting and believing Him. Trust Him when he says He cares about me and values me no matter if the world screams the opposite. If the dirty dishes or the unfolded laundry are important to me, then they’re important to Him too. Believe His loving whisper over the condemning roar of self-criticism. Trust that still small voice that tells me it’s going to be alright rather than give in, oh so easily, to fear.
It means stepping outside my comfort zone, even at the risk of failing spectacularly and looking like a bumbling idiot. Trust that even if that does happen, He is still able to make good come out of it and get glory from it. Trust also that he will equip me with what I need to complete the task.
It also means I give up control. Now that’s a big one for me! I’m not very comfortable not being in control of what’s happening. It’s scary! Going all in means that when things don’t go exactly the way I planned, I resist the urge to throw an almighty tantrum but instead focus on the fact that His plans are way bigger and better. Know that when I focus on Him and His plans instead of mine, he will in turn take care of me and everyone I love.
So, that’s what going all in means for me. What does it mean for you in your present situation in life? It may be something entirely different! If you don’t know yet, ask Him and He’ll find a way to let you know! What’s more, Matthew 9: 24 says, ‘If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it.’ So unlike the hero in the beginning you don’t have to worry if it pays off or not!
Betsy Sony is a stay-at-home mom who has the full-time job of looking after 4 beautiful girls. She came to the United States from India along with her husband Sony about 4 years ago and loves all things Skyline, reading, being outdoors, and experiencing new cultures and cuisines.